Synchronicity = the simultaneous occurrence of events that appear significantly related but have no discernible causal connection

Learning to tune into the “signs”. It’s amazing actually.

Here’s an article that explains it astutely. Please enjoy the read.



The Journey by: Mary Oliver

Just wanted to share one of my favorite poems =)

One day you finally knew

what you had to do, and began, 

though the voices around you

kept shouting

their bad advice-

though the whole house

began to tremble

and you felt the old tug

at your ankles.

“Mend my life!”

each voice cried.

But you didn’t stop.

You knew what you had to do,

though the wind pried

with its stiff fingers

at the very foundations,

though their melancholy

was terrible.

It was already late

enough, and a wild night,

and the road full of fallen 

branches and stones.

But little by little,

as you left their voices behind,

the stars began to burn

through the sheets of clouds,

and there was a new voice

which you slowly

recognized as your own,

that kept you company

as you strode deeper and deeper

into the world,

determined to do

the only thing you could do-

determined to save

the only life you could save.

Form is Empty

The last time I went home to visit my mother, I realized how much I miss her.  I miss how she was always there for me in company and in friendship. I miss her old form. Then all these practices on non-attachment just hit me – form is empty.

Things, people, experiences – they come and go, and we don’t really understand what that means until someone so dear to us has changed so drastically even before you can say, “wait a minute;  not yet!” But the deed is done and there’s nothing you can do, except live with what is here now. Truly practicing living in the present moment.

And in living in the present moment, practicing compassion towards oneself and others who are also affected by the experience.

May we all be well.

May we all be at peace.

May we all feel connected.

May we be willing to face fear and relinquish self-harm.

May we all be held in compassion.

May we be free from suffering and the roots of suffering.

Ashtanga Yoga Conference 2015

The conference was such an amazing and fruitful experience. Amazing, because I had the privilege of being in the presence of Ashtanga yoga’s most senior teachers. One of whom is Nancy Gilgoff, one of Guruji’s first students back in the 1970’s.

The conference was held in Ubud, Bali in collaboration with Ashtanga Yoga Bali Research Center (AYBRC). The other teachers for this conference were Manju Jois, David Swenson, Anthony Carlisi (Prem), Heather Duplex (Radha), Danny Paradise and Eileen Hall.

In that week, the teachers each shared their own yoga journey and experiences to all of us. It was very clear what yoga meant to them and they were sharing with such earnestness that you immediately get an idea of how dedicated they are to their practice. It was also clear that their practices have evolved through the years. And it is because of the maturity of their personal practice that they are able to inspire, help people and continue Guruji’s work.

So, here’s just a few points from each one’s talk:


It’s about the quality of the yoga not the quantity. 


It is important to have a self practice – listen to own self rather than depend on a group dynamic all the time. Practice is about independence. 


Vinyasa – precise synchronization of breath and movement; every movement has a prescribed breath; “it is an attempt at aligning ourselves with the inherent continuum of motion that permeates the universe in which we reside”  

Prem and Radha

Get in touch with your energy- manage it. Find the ebb and flow in the practice.


4 Questions to ask yourself:

Am i happy with what I’m doing?

Is what i’m doing adding to the confusion in the earth?

Is what i’m doing contributing to peace?

How do I want to be remembered when I die?


Allow the physical form to fade away and become the breath, the energy. 

In that week, I learned that my 8-year old Primary Series practice is not entirely healthy in a way that I am causing an imbalance through all the forward bending that I have been doing for that long period. It’s been said in one of the panel discussions that we should put less focus on the binding or perfecting a pose before moving on to the next, but more on the dedication and earnestness of the student. According to Nancy, Guruji said that, “the next pose helps the last”. So in line with this, I got the first 6 poses of the Intermediate Series from Manju. I also got advise from Nancy to always start the week’s practice with Primary Series and practice up to the Intermediate poses for the rest of the week, or stop at Navasana followed by Intermediate if I’m tired. She also advised that I can do this alternately depending on my energy.

I asked about Friday led classes and she said that it’s a new thing and that she does not practice or teach that way, because that is not how she learned. Anyway, I will do my best to integrate the old and the new as a practitioner in this tradition.

Another thing I got is that it is urgent that I have one teacher that I keep going back to. Hmm…time to seriously consider this.

Here are some photos from the conference…

Ananda Cottages, venue for conference

a lotus pond

first day welcome into the shala

Manju Jois

David Swenson

Nancy Gilgoff

addho mukha svanasana

Prem and Radha

waiting to chant the opening mantra

last day of practice – teachers

last day of practice – practitioners

Danny Paradise and friends in concert to end the conference

Taking Refuge

The last 3 weeks have been personally challenging. My mother is very ill and it’s been a one day at a time, hour by hour, breath by breath experience for all. I’m very grateful that the practice has given me so much refuge in facing my own fears and weaknesses.

In an article that captured my “need” to practice in a very simplistic way, it said:

The foundations we set, and the lessons we learn on the mat transcend to our everyday lives. As we explore the body and its capabilities, we also explore our limitations – in all aspects of ourselves – and how they change over time.

So, yeah.

The years of training, not only the body, but also the mind, in the practice of awareness has given me the strength I needed in the last few weeks I’ve spent with my family. There were many days when old patterns and conditions would arise, but taking a step back and a breath or two, I remember that what arises passes.

Right now, watching my mother go through the suffering of aging and sickness, I realize the frailty of our existence even more. The urgency to live in the present moment; the fragility of our hopes and dreams; the importance of having faith; and in the midst of all the ongoing variety of experiences, maintaining a non-grasping attitude. I constantly remind myself to control what I can and to let go of what I can’t. There are also moments when I allow myself to fall apart and that’s OK.

May we all be well. May we all be safe. May we all be at peace. May we all feel connected. May we be willing to face fear and relinquish self-harm. May we all be free from suffering and the root of suffering.

The Yinside

In 2009, due to much frustration with my ashtanga practice, I learned about yin yoga. I liked it almost instantly due to the fact that it appealed to my kapha side, which likes matters to have a more gentle approach.

I remember the first few times I practiced it – my pitta brain was on fire! Not only was it an asana practice, but also a practice on patience, which at that time, was not one of my best traits. Even now, it’s still a work in progress. =)

Through the years and with patience, I learned to enjoy it. It was a love that unfolded slowly as I tested my limits in the shape of an asana; as I resolved to stay still; as I slowly increased my time in a pose.

All I can say is, yin yoga has its own benefits to the practitioner. But one has to go through it to experience it for one’s self. Just like any practice – asana, meditation, pranayama.

A Journey in Yoga

Around this time, 9 years ago, I went to my first yoga class. It was a Bikram Yoga class in Manila, where I’m from and where I lived for 34+ years before moving on to other cities. I told myself that day that I’m not buying a mat until I’ve gone to 2 classes and still like it. Well, I bought my first mat before I went to my second class. And so I knew that there’s no arguing with the fact that I fell in love with the practice of yoga from then on.

Several mats, yoga clothes, cities, shalas, countries, teachers, yoga postures, philosophies, teacher trainings and practices later, here I am.

I remember in one of the weekend yoga workshops/ trainings that I went to, I was asked, “what does yoga mean to you?” To which my answer was, “mastering the self.”

At this point, I know enough to know that I don’t know anything. All I know is that I’m really good at self-sabotage and suffering always arises when I’m craving for something that’s not there yet or that’s not yet available to me in its full form. And in the process of learning (or unlearning), that can take a very long time in some cases, I have realized that I’m capable of healing as much as I’m capable of destroying. I have been through days when I’m in full denial of what’s going on to the point of ignorance. However, I’ve also had days when the light comes in and the truth is in full view and there’s nothing else to do but to be honest about (or with) what is.

In working with yoga postures, a lot of patience really helps. Whether it be with the posture that I’m persevering to express fully with my very stiff body or my ego that’s constantly getting annihilated, patience is key. Not only patience, but also kindness – compassion towards self goes a long way. This stiff body may be considered a blessing or a curse, depending on my momentary state of mind.

My current practice of Ashtanga Vinyasa Yoga have a lot of poses that entail flexibility and strength. Some poses look pretzel-like, and with a body like mine that refuses to turn into a pretzel overnight or even a year or three or eight, I am more and more aware that this stiffness is a part of the evolution that I have put myself through to be a better human being. ashtanga yoga primary series yoga teacher training chart The Primary Series in this system is otherwise known as Yoga Chikitsa or Yoga Therapy. In the 8 years (and counting) that I’ve been practicing it, I have gone through many ups and downs. And as such, I’ve had terrible relapses when self-sabotage fully takes over. It’s like a dance of cha-cha. One step forward, one step back. Two steps forward, two steps back. One step forward, two steps back. Two steps forward, one step back. Side steps too.

With this developing awareness of my conditionality, I realized that this is why practice is very important. Practice as a verb, not a noun. In response to a co-practitioner’s post in one of the Facebook groups I’m shamelessly a part of, I wrote:

I’ve let go of all expectations on self. I’ve learned to be kinder and more patient to myself and my practice. I’ve learned to see what’s in front of me, rather than what I do not and cannot have at the moment. And whenever I’m feeling inadequate with my perceived shortcomings, I remind myself: practice, practice…all is coming.

The continuous work to break the developed conditions that are detrimental to my wellbeing is a work in progress. There is a misconception that if you’re a yogi or a Buddhist or even a person who is spiritually inclined, you are a”nice person”. Well, I beg to differ. Everyone and anyone who knows me well know this is untrue and not applicable. I believe there is little value in being nice, but a lot in being truthful and compassionate. Compassion is not necessarily nice. And in my case, nice-ness is an effect, not a personality trait.

Whenever I’m engaged in my asana practice, there’s a lot of inner chatter that’s also present. There’s the very loud voices of defeat, envy, pain, laziness and so on. There’s also a range of emotions that go through my mind and body – anger, tension, frustration, pride, pleasure, etc. And because of a practice that strengthens and matures as time goes by, I now know that these conditions are all impermanent.

Impermanence…a very important concept in this learning process. The silent knowing that nothing is permanent. The permanence of impermanence. The impermanence of permanence. (A paradox of our existence.) And this knowing…this helps me stay present; to be with what’s available to me in a given moment. My endlessly shifting experience of the physical and subtle aspects of my practice is evident of this truth.

So, for now, I’ll just keep moving along; realizing my own power as I come across new things in this path. And of course, part of this journey is the community that helps lift me up when everything is falling apart. I am very grateful to find one wherever I am.

Gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha.